Tuesday, November 6, 2012

taking off this collar...

Im’a takin’ off this collar, no more leash, no more chain.
Im’a heading off to somewhere, where no one knows my name.
Do a little unwinding, the only way that I know how.
Yeah, oh yeah tonight, im going out….
Im going out of town, out on the town, out somewhere to unwind,
My bags are packed, the car is wating, yeah I aint wasting no time,
Im gonna get to forgetting, all the things ill do,
Yeah im leaving here tonight, and I sure as hell aint taking you,
This place feels like a prison, all the walls are closing in,
And it sure don’t feel much different than any other that ive been,
Tighting up that neck tie, it starts to feeling like a chain,
Reminding me who im serving as I march through this rat race,
The money than im making, it aint even really mine,
Pay the tax man, and the sheriff, just enough left for her wine,
Yeah every year im stuck here, I just a little more indebt,
And if there ever was a breaking point, I think it just got met…
Im’a takin’ off this collar, no more leash, no more chain.
Im’a heading off to somewhere, where no one knows my name.
Do a little unwinding, the only way that I know how.
Yeah, oh yeah tonight, im going out….
Im going out of town, out on the town, out somewhere to unwind,
My bags are packed, the car is wating, yeah I aint wasting no time,
Im gonna get to forgetting, all the things ill do,
Yeah im leaving here tonight, and I sure as hell aint taking you,

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

It's time to do better

Sometimes I feel the desire to run away from the current.
I chose to bury myself in things to divert my thoughts from focusing on state that is now,
god gifted me with eyes to fully see and understand the world beyond the pixie dust vision held by those that are content with just going through the motions of life and not searching for understanding of the world and all of its complexities,
I do not have the capability of turning off this concern and burying myself in mindlessness and self gratification of the brain dead television, video games, or general materialism, that engulfs our current societal norm,
I constantly see the world for what it is including all its flaws and the destructive path that it is on,

I cannot see with the selfish eye of pure self indulgence and self gratification,
This selfishness is not just a selfishness of wanting things for oneself and materialism but also for the selfish desire for the world to be as one desires it, for everyone to fall into place of this personal gratifying vision that anyone individual has, and to do all that is possible to make others fit into this “mold”,
instead I see the world as the imperfect, holistic, evolving creature that it is,
as the full sum of its parts, and for how the imperfections work together to create the perfection that it is,

I also see the power of humanity, and how mans slowly developing brain has reached a mass of power capable of doing much good or much harm to the world,
what scares me with this is mans arrogance of believing it knows all that is to be known and using this to inspire it's futile attempts to control a world so much bigger and more complex and interwoven than it could ever understand,
this frightens me to my core as I see the evils in this arrogance and the destructive path that this points us on,

particularly with centrically focused power and the lack of checks and balances that a more individualistic and local based society would provide,
the move to this more world centric power where individuals are content with giving up their rights and powers to leaders who offer false promises of security and riches,
these individuals motivated or unmotivated out of apathy and lack of desire for taking the personal responsibility and effort that come with having freedom chose to give this freedom away to others as long as those others promise to take the responsibility that comes along with it,

those leaders willing to claim this power from this apathetic society are not the type of leaders who will lead free people and guide them towards enlightenment,
Rather they are that of those that have their own visions of the way the world should work and want to manage the mindless drones to fit into this vision,
They do not want individuals thinking for their selves and running their own lives, rather they want those that are willing to fall in line,

True leaders that encourage men to understand that liberty only comes from within do not make promises of benefits to be given from choosing them as their leaders,
Rather they work to inspire others to stand up and lead their selves,
to think for their selves, to educate their selves and to bring their selves to a less selfish and holistic understanding of the world and their place in it,

I don't see our world headed anywhere near this direction, rather farther away from ,
I see apathetic people tossing away their liberty to managers not leaders boasting false promises of security,
I see managers not leaders being chosen on pretty words and promises of materialistic benefits,
I see a pop culture hell bent on self destruction powered by this internal greed with no desire to pursue enlightenment,
this scares me at my core,

I have hid from these visions for most of my life,
burying myself in obsessions some that our current society would call "good" many they would call "bad" but all obsessions I used to distract myself from seeing the true understanding of this destructive path that we are on,

I have now more so come to understand that having these visions and this understanding does not mean that I am crazy and out of sync with reality,
Rather it shows that i am out of sync with a culture that has went so far astray,
this does not give me the right or the reason to continue on a self destructive and self gratifying path as “what the hell” society is on this hopeless path anyways,
it instead bestows upon me the responsibility to utilize the best of my capabilities of my understanding, knowledge, talents, and fortitude to change it,

I can no longer sit idly by and watch as the world marches towards this destruction,
as humanity marches away from freedom and towards tyranny,
as we destroy our earth chasing materialistic dreams of self importance,
as our citizens are convinced that some false two dimensional dichotomy viewpoint divides them into battling factions all the time distracting them from the real problems that we truly face,

I must devote my efforts to trying to educate, to trying to change, to trying to guide us out of this darkness,
I must focus my efforts on ripping off the blinders and clearing the remaining dust from our eyes,
So that we can all see with our own individual eyes the world for the beauty that it is, for the evils that exist, and for the beauty that can be...

Yes these are the things I awake thinking of at 2:30am,
You may think that this makes me a crazy person,
But truthfully ask yourself, you internal conscience, your true internal self who is crazy?
those who see these problems and desires to change them or those that think that this current state is just fine and somehow miraculously sustainable...


we have created one of the most hideous crimes that humanity has ever known that or robbing from the future....
I ask you to truly question your own soul as o whether you are on the right path and doing all that you can do to better the world and if not to challenge yourself to do more and reach your ultimate potential,
We only get one chance to make our mark on this world, is it time that we decide we want to leave it a better place, or do we say screw the future?

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

aint that the truth...

Yes I am just a rambler..
I was born a gypsie soul,
make my living making music..
out here on the road,

met my sweetheart on a park bench..
back in nineteen ninety two,
and we sure made good loving..
before we were through,

she went and found another man..
as I couldn't do her right,
lord to watch her walk away..
was such an awful sight,

aint that the truth..
aint that the truth,
truth of it all...

But time moves on...
And so do I,
Living hard...
Until I die,

these days the television..
says so many awful things,
shot mine with a fourty five..
then heard the neighbor scream,

So I moved on..
probably should have just turned it off...
but what the hell..

reality television is such a mess..
and nothing else is on,cept
news channels full of things..
about how this worlds gone wrong,

you got preachers selling politics..
politicians selling lies,
and i just keep on living..
trying to make shit rhyme,

aint that the truth..
aint that the truth,
truth of it all...

these days im not sure whats up and down..
and things sure as hell ain't right,
but i still dont have much trouble..
going to bed at night,

sometimes its on a park bench..
others in a fancy hotel,s
ometimes it's with your girlfriend..
Hey man, what the hell,

aint that the truth..
aint that the truth,
truth of it all...

But time moves on...
And so do I,
Living hard...
Until I die,

aint that the truth..
aint that the truth,
truth of it all...

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

the first time i held that girl in my arms they way that it felt, it cant be ignored, oh her sould touched me, ohhhh, when she touched me and i felt so alive anytime she was near, my heart felt so free, sould ridden of fear, oh how her soul touched me, oh lord how she touched me, theres just something bout that woman that i can not explain that brought back to life a soul so burdened by pain, ohhh when she touched me ohhhh, how her soul touched me, somwhere in this world theres a place free of fear, a place where dreams dont die, they live on beyond years, a place where hearts are left unburdened by time, a place unexplainable by reason or rhyme, many spend their lives searching but never get near, many have gave up looking, but not me my dear, because i was there, ohhh, when you touched me, and i know that damn devil just wouldnt let me be, brought out my demons wrapped in insecurity, and and and i know that he hurt you, that bastard he hurt you, and ill never forgive him, or that part of me, for he chased away the answer to all of my dreams, and if i could turn this world right around on a dime, if it took me forever to somehow stop time, oh and go back babe, lord whould i go back babe, id go back to that moment when i held you in my arms, id leave time there frozen, no need to move on, oh how you touched me, how i felt when you touched me, i wont give up on searching, but it dont seem fair, ive got many mountains to climb, but i feel someday ill get there, to that place, ohhh that place that you took me, ill keep fighting these demons, i wont let them win, try to break free of this prison that ive been living in, lord in this mess ive made, i dont think it's to late, and whenever i get there, to that place far away, ill just keep on hoping that maybe someday, that ill get to see you, ohhhh, how sweet to see you, and maybe you'll remember that better part of me, the one you helped dig out, that you helped set free, ohhhh, how you touched me, how you helped set my soul free, and maybe you'll reach out your hand to take mine, and maybe you'll hold me again one more time, and maybe in that moment ill finally be free, and maybe ill shake these demons that keep haunting me, ohhhh, and maybe, just maybe there will be a better day, and maybe, just maybe, is all i can say, ohhh when she touched me, ohhh lord how she touched me, how she set my soul free, ohhh when she touched me, how her soul touched me....

Saturday, May 19, 2012

Long day

It's been a long day, I'm driving down the highway, And ive had to much to drink, I'm thinking bout a woman, Oh god that woman, She meant so much to me, But now she's gone, Guess she got tired of me, Not willing to change my stubborn ways, And she left me lonely, So damn lonely, And I got so much on my mind, But this empty feeling, Gotta lose this feeling, But I guess it only heals with time, Just gotta keep on moving, Keep on a moving, Just keeping pace with the rhyme, Cause it's been a long day, I'm crushing down the highway, And I've had to much to drink, Hoping for the next exit, Ohh, come on exit, Cause I really got to pee, Ohhh, yeah keeping pace with the highway, Keep on a doing things my way, Can't let know body tell me how to live, But maybe I wouldn't keep hanging on o lonely, So damn lonely, If I'd only learn to give, And bend my stubborn, So damn stubborn, Won't let nobody slow me down, Gotta keep on moving, Right on a moving, In this bottle I may drown, Oh yeah, it's another long day, I'm cruising down the highway, And I've had to much to drink, I'm thinking bout a woman, Ohh, god love that woman, Lord she meant so much to me,
Cause where it is I'm going babe, there ain't no way of knowing, And where it is I'm going, yeah, I don't really care, Cause where it is im going, There ain't no way of knowing, And all I know is when I get there babe, I want you there, Cause when it is I get there, Can't think of nothing better I swear, Cause wherever It is I end up, babe, I want you there, Yeah want you there, Nothing else I swear, Ain't no way of knowing, Where it is we're going, Yeah I don't care, Cause wherever my next stop is, Girl I want you there, Truth is we keep on moving, That's just how life keeps grooving, Through the weather, through the seasons, Spring rain , summer sun, ad winter snow, The falling leaves of autumn, from the tops down to the bottom, It all just keeps on moving, Yeah right along with time, And I just keep on drifting, with the wind, collecting wisdom, Trying to find some answers, To just why oh why, And it leads me to different places, Meeting so many different faces, But none of them quite replaces, The warmth felt in my deep inside, From anytime I see you smiling, And the way my heart stops beating, When your eyes meet mine, And anytime I leave ya, It just makes want to see ya, And feel the magic moment, When I get to see you again, Cause where it is I'm going babe, there ain't no way of knowing, And where it is I'm going, yeah, I don't really care, Cause where it is im going, There ain't no way of knowing, And all I know is when I get there babe, I want you there, Cause when it is I get there, Can't think of nothing better I swear, Cause wherever It is I end up, babe, I want you there, Yeah want you there, Nothing else I swear, Ain't no way of knowing, Where it is we're going, Yeah I don't care, Cause wherever my next stop is, Girl I want you there, Yeah nothing else I swear, That can leave me feeling, The way my heart gets to feeling, Yeah, when you are there, Babe when you are there, Nothing else I swear, Can't wait till you are there, Won't you be there, Please girl won't you be there, Oh yeah won't you be there...

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

No I can’t tell my heart not to love you, No it just don’t work that way, So many nights you done left me, Standing out here in the rain,

Yet id still come running with open arms to hold you, The second you opened up that door, Cause you touched something deep down inside me, That’s just left me here praying for more,

And anytime I close my eyes, I can still see that pretty smile, The way your light brought life to my heart, Oh, I would walk a thousand miles,

Just for one more chance to hold you, To taste the air you breathe, Oh God if you can hear me, Im falling down here on my knees,

Just give me one more chance to, Somehow try to, yeah just to try and make things right, Ive been trying to pull myself together, But the devil puts up a damn good fight,

And I know that you have moved on, And they tell me I should just let it go, but I just feel the need to tell you, There’s just one thing you should know,

I can’t tell my heart not to love you, No it just don’t work that way, So many nights you done left me, Standing out here in the rain,

Yet id still come running with open arms to hold you, The second you opened up that door, Cause you touched something deep down inside me, That’s just left me here praying for more,

And anytime I close my eyes, I can still see that pretty smile, The way your light brought life to my heart, Oh, I would walk a thousand miles,

Just for one more chance to hold you, To taste the air you breathe, Oh God if you can hear me, Im falling down here on my knees,

if theres any chance at all your listening, just know im doing the best i can, but theres just something missing in the heart, of this lost and lonely man...

I can’t tell my heart not to love you, No it just don’t work that way, So many nights you done left me, Standing out here in the rain,

Thursday, April 26, 2012

please let me go

Yeah it's an awful life when I'm surrounded by you , I can't let go, don't know what I can do, Your memories all float around in my mind, reminding me of such a better time, And my heart breaks slowly each time that I think, That another day will go on, out here on the brink, Yes I've started falling the day you walked in, And the day you walked out pushed me over the ledge, Since then I've been falling, praying for the ground, believing that splat would be such a wonderful sound, right now i just sit here hoping for the pain, cause an end to this misery would be a great thing, But ur memory won't let go it just keeps hanging on, Telling me someday that you might not be gone, So I just keep sitting here floating through air, I closed my eyes once, open then if I dare, But that ground seems far, so damn far away, And the day that I hit it will be such a sweet day , Cause them maybe all of this pain will be gone, Of knowing I lost the only thing that kept me going on, See your love was like sunshine in a lifetime of rain, And I done chased it, I chased it, so damn far away, Got damn these old demons that won't let me go, And someday it will be better, at least they tell me so, But yet I keep falling just praying for the ground, Cause that hard hit would be wonderful I can imagine the sound, But yet I just keep on falling, don't seem like I'm going nowhere, Just keep hoping that you'll be back, Got damn it ain't fair, Just tell your damn memory to finally let me go, My souls grew damn tired it just wants to go home....

Monday, April 23, 2012

im not over you no more

looked in the mirror this morning, said damn it boy your doing well, down twenty pounds since April, and that new dew wears you well, hit in the winning run on friday, and left with the waitresses number that night, just one of those times when you can say, hey man everything is going right, sat down for myself some spring cleaning, out with the old i guess they say, making room for new begginings, making room for brighter days, until i opened up that dresser drawer... that that old picture came falling down, those pretty eyes just seemed to watch me, the whole way to the ground, and with it my heart went falling all the way down to the floor, and just like that it's safe to say im not over you no more... ohhh-whoooo-ohhh, ohhh-oohhhh-ohhh, those memories, whooo-oooohhh-oooo, won't let me be, ohhh-whooo-ohhh, ohh-ohhh, nooo-oohhhh, ohhh-yeahhhh, they wont let go of me, if i could turn this whole damn around, stop it spinning in it's tracks, whooo-ooohhh-ohhh, ohhh-ohhh-ohhh-ohhh yeah, just to have one more day back, ive been wrestling with those memories, keep playing over and over in my head, and i thought by now that they'd be over, until that picture fell next to the bed, the bed that we made so much sweet love in, where i got to hold heaven in my arms, and even after all the hell ive raised with the devil, ill never forgive him for that scar, ohhh-for how he let me hurt you, and for how-ooowww-owww i let my pride chase you away, and i wonder if you ever think of me, or if you just through those memories away, yeah you can say ive been doing great without you, really seemed lately to get things right, but if you could see my heart from the inside, it would be such an awful sight, i thought id finally made my peace with it, thought id finally closed that door, but now i guess its safe to say, im not over you no more, ohhh-whoooo-ohhh, ohhh-oohhhh-ohhh, those memories, whooo-oooohhh-oooo, won't let me be, ohhh-whooo-ohhh, ohh-ohhh, nooo-oohhhh, ohhh-yeahhhh, they wont let go of me, if i could turn this whole damn around, stop it spinning in it's tracks, whooo-ooohhh-ohhh, ohhh-ohhh-ohhh-ohhh yeah, just to have one more day back, everyone tells me i just need to let it go, that better days will come my way, truth is the world without you, it's such a damn lonely place, and i can fake my way through the motions, and i can put on quite a show, show the world that im a better man, so hopefully they'll never know, how deep my shame runs for how i lost what, how my heart stopped beating in my chest, chased away by yesterdays demons, that i just couldnt lay to rest, ohhh-whoooo-ohhh, ohhh-oohhhh-ohhh, those memories, whooo-oooohhh-oooo, won't let me be, ohhh-whooo-ohhh, ohh-ohhh, nooo-oohhhh, ohhh-yeahhhh, they wont let go of me, if i could turn this whole damn around, stop it spinning in it's tracks, whooo-ooohhh-ohhh, ohhh-ohhh-ohhh-ohhh yeah, just to have one more day back, and i may never again, get to hold you, but your memories wont ever let me go, holding on so damn tight to what is left of, this broke and batter soul, and what id give for one more day to love you, to show you how i could be a better man, but whose to say i wouldnt stumble with my vices, and chase you all the way, away again, ohh-whoooo-ohhh, ohhh-oohhhh-ohhh, those memories, whooo-oooohhh-oooo, won't let me be, ohhh-whooo-ohhh, ohh-ohhh, nooo-oohhhh, ohhh-yeahhhh, they wont let go of me, so ill bury this back down deep inside me, pretend that i just let it go, put this show back on for the world around me, so only me and your memory will know,

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

those were the times...

oh, how i miss it, oh, those were the times,
oh, the way they hit us,
couldnt explain through reason or rhyme,
oh, but how they left us,
and oh, how they leave us still,
... lives forever changed by something so surreal,

isnt it quite strange how getting lost,
is quite often the only way to be found,
or perhaps we are all really lost,
as this world seems to come unwound,

but somehow we were drawn together,
for such a precious moment of time,
so far far away,
from lifes daily endless grind,

but those days may have been short lived,
but within them an enternity spawned,
lives torn apart and put back together,
souls brought together as one,

and in that drunken stooper,
they found a way to heal,
sparking life back into fading bodies,
reminding them how to feel,

and bringing lost souls together,
and friendships that will never fade,
for just as mother ocean takes away from us,
she gives back with every wave

gives back with every wave...

father time just keeps on ticking,
steady as he goes,
refreshing every moment,
where its going noone knows,

he fills us often with smiles and laughter,
but just as often with sandness and tears,
with steady hands just keeps on changing,
rolling through the years,

mother ocean, she's a lover,
but not the heartless kind,
in and out she keeps on going,
keeps us rolling with the tide,

she keeps time with her great lover,
and keeps her beat right with the days,
for just as mother ocean takes away from us,
she gives back with every wave,

Sunday, April 8, 2012

two shots away from hell

One shot away from freedom, two shots away from hell,
Yeah where it is I'm going there ain't no way to tell,
Spend my life lonely in freedom,
Or to many years her slave,
Either way when its ending,
It's something else I'll crave,
Well maybe I'll never be happy,
With anything that's already there,
So I'll just keep on searching,
Till the end I'll swear,
That one day ima find me,
Such a better day,
And if I die trying, at least I didn't live my life your way...

flying solo...

I fly solo a lot these days, but it's ok I was born that way, and besides that in never alone, I've got my friend the highway riding along,
And the new people I meet they all seem to smile, when I tell them where I've been, and I'll be back in a while, and When I do make it back their smiling again,
And a handshake or hug comes following then,
Some birds are to colorful to be caged, some were born to sit still, some were born to rage,
And hell I might not ever get to be old,
But what will live forever are the stories I've told,
So hopefully we will meet again somewhere down the street, and we can dance a jig or two of your feeling the beat, and if you ain't quite got that vibe in your shoes, I've got some corn whiskey in a jar that will put you in the mood,
But I can't stay not for to long,
Cause I'm just a lonely singer out looking for a song,

kentucky sunset...

Kentucky sunset can make a grown man cry,
Stole the days beauty to fill up the sky,
Hold on to every last second of the day,
Before they let the night still it away...

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Truth of it all

Baby since you left me
Trying to find a way to ease the pain
even buried in this bottle
it still feels the same,
And that's the truth
Truth of it all

And no that don't mean that I can blame you
Hell, hell who the hell would stay,
with a man lost in so many vices,
who cant seem to find his way,
Ain't that the truth,
Ain't that the truth,

ohhh-la,la,la la,la, lonely,
la,da,da,da, lonesome me,
ohhh-ohhh since you left me baby,
ohhh-baby cant you see,

ohh-la,la,la lovely, lady,
ohh-la, how i miss you so,
ohhh-since you left me baby,
ive been buried in this hole,

ohhh-cant you see,
ohh-whoo-is-me,


But I can tell you one thing,
No one else will love you the way I do,
I've been known to walk through fire,
And I'd do that all and more for you,
and you know its true,
oh yes you do,
oh yes you do,

I'm a man damn far from perfect
But I try and do the best I can
And girl what I miss most of all
Is how you made me want to be a better man
and thats the truth
truth of it all

ohhh-la,la,la la,la, lonely,
la,da,da,da, lonesome me,
ohhh-ohhh since you left me baby,
ohhh-baby cant you see,

ohh-la,la,la lovely, lady,
ohh-la, how i miss you so,
ohhh-since you left me baby,
ive been buried in this hole,

ohhh-cant you see,
ohh-whoo-is-me,


sometimes i start to feeling better
then remember that pretty smile
To taste those pretty lips again
I walk barefoot for miles,
Through the pouring rain,
Or burning sand,
anywhere id go,
just to touch your hand,


And I know this song won't get you back
And I probably never will
But putting this pen to paper
might help me find a way to heal,
ohh- and if it dont,
well what the hell,

maybe i hold on to the memory
even though it burns me so
because the sting of the pain
is at least better than being alone
oh aint it so,
ohh-ohhh aint it so,



ohhh-la,la,la la,la, lonely,
la,da,da,da, lonesome me,
ohhh-ohhh since you left me baby,
ohhh-baby cant you see,

ohh-la,la,la lovely, lady,
ohh-la, how i miss you so,
ohhh-since you left me baby,
ive been buried in this hole,

ohhh-cant you see,
ohh-whoo-is-me,

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Which one you gonna choose

I don't believe in black or white, wrong or right, 
I think we all carry our own shades of gray,

I do believe that thinking were somewhere in the middle,
Is just the wrong way to be looking at the riddle,
Cause that still assumes we got to chose between two sides,

Truth be told the biggest war,
That we all fighting,
That be the one that be raging inside us,
As we try to free our souls,

That being said I do believe in love and hate,
Not as opposites,
 but as seeds to find the way,

One can lead you down a lonely road,
Feel up the space and bury down your soul,
The other can set you free,

Oh it's a long dark road  where we're all heading,
But ain't it a great life that we've been giving,
The way you live it is up to you,

So when you see clearly the only real choose is love and hate,
And which way you go with it, that's gonna seal your fate,
So which one are you gonna chose...

Truth be told the biggest war,
That we all fighting,
That be the one that be raging inside us,
As we try to free our souls,

Cause love be the way that can help you see the light,
Free those emotions you keep locked down inside,
Open your eyes clearly and help to set you free,

Where hate be da one that consumes all your thinking,
Feels you up with anger, Stops your soul from breathing,
Yes brother it's the same for you and me,

So when you see clearly the only real choose is love and hate,
And which way you go with it, that's gonna seal your fate,
So which one are you gonna chose...

I don't believe in black or white, wrong or right, 
I think we all carry our own shades of gray,

I do believe that thinking were somewhere in the middle,
Is just the wrong way to be looking at the riddle,
Cause that still assumes we got to chose between two sides,

Truth be told the biggest war,
That we all fighting,
That be the one that be raging inside us,
As we try to free our souls,

Monday, February 27, 2012

mary the lover

some of them trying to find Jesus,
some running from their pride,
some of them looking for a reason,
some just searching for a rhyme,

she just houses and feeds them,
and sends em on there way,
cause what it is their needin',
they'll have to find some other place,

she just tries to help out,
the only way that she knows how,
and every one that leaves her,
she leaves them with a smile,

they say Mary she's a sinner,
but many've called Mary a saint,
I guess it's in the eye of the beholder,
For what we are an ain't,

this road that we all travel,
It's filled with broken dreams,
and the ways we find to mend them,
to others it may seem,

But where it is we're going,
and how we will get there we don't know,
But many a prophet has preached,
You reap just what you sow,

see Mary she's a lover,
It's the only life she's ever known,
and she won't make you no false promises,
Just help to ease your load,

they say Mary she's a sinner,
but Many've called Mary a saint,
I guess it's in the eye of the beholder,
For what we are an ain't,

she just keeps on helping,
the only way that she knows how,
and every one that leaves her,
she leaves them with a smile,

some of them trying to find Jesus,
some running from their pride,
some of them looking for a reason,
some just searching for a rhyme,

she just houses and feeds them,
and sends em on there way,
cause what it is there needing,
they'll have to find some other place

Friday, February 3, 2012

over and over... and over and over...

i said nick knack patty whack give a dog a bone,
roll'em on over send him back home,
but where's he gonna be when it's over,
laying in bed thinkin' shit over,

whatcha gonna do when he falls in love,
cause love aint nothing you been thinkin of,
you just out there lookin' for a good time,
that's what you say but i think it's just a disguise,

really you just out there lookin' for power,
someone over which you can tower,
to make you feel better for how you was treated,
so beat down and so defeated,

now you wanna go and pass the buck down,
hmmm, how familiar does this shit sound,


come on now lady wont you think about it,
but are you gonna listen...hmmmm, i doubt it,
you just gonna move on to the next guy,
nevermind the hearts you break or the ones you make cry,

you just gonna keep luring them in,
hearts for breaking like pissing in the wind,
but where you gonna end up when it's over,
laying in bed, thinkin' shit over,

what you gonna do when you needin love,
cause love aint nothin you been thinkin of,
while you were out there lookin for a good time,
you done and gone and broke your heart from the inside,

now your empty looking for a quick fix,
taking home anybody that you can get with,
but they'll be out of bed before you roll over,
it's a viscious cycle over and over,

i said nick knack patty whack give a dog a bone,
roll'em on over send him back home,
but where's he gonna be when it's over,
laying in bed thinkin' shit over,

but what you gonna do when he falls in love,
cause love aint nothing, you been thinkin of,
and love is what you done and run away from,
but love is the only thing you been hiding from,
but love aint nothing that you been thinkin of,
but love is the one thing you've been dreaming of,

and over and over,ohhhh,
and over, over,and over,
ohh-ohh, over and over,
ohhhh, over, over,
ohhh-ohhhh, over and over,
ohhh, and over and over,
yeaaahhh, over, over,
yeah let's get this shit over,
ohhhh, ohhh-over,

this shit is whack, im outta here....

Friday, January 20, 2012

drown her out of my heart...

another sunday morning wake up call, is the ringing in my head,
pickin my pants off the floor, after sneaking out of bed,
whatever it was i did last night, i sure as hell dont recall,
and whoever this is lying next to me, well don't that just say it all,


mornings lately spent sleeping off the night before,
and evenings picking songs, getting tuned, and trying to keep myself up off the floor,
pretty girls come easily, when your up on the stage,
and loneliness, draws loneliness, it just sure seems that way,

the emptiness she left me with, just seems to drown my soul,
and no matter how high the night before, the mornings always feel so low,

id like to learn to love again, but i dont know where to start,
see i can drink her off my mind,but i cant drown her out my heart,

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

tonight im gonna leave this town...


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

i bought a one way ticket on an south bound train,
heading down where they all know my name,
this big city life's really got me down,
and tonight i'm gonna leave this town,

yeah tonight im leaving maybe headed out west,
those colorado mountains could really pass the test,
need some fresh air and some tall, tall trees,
anywhere but here is where i want to be,

i bought a one way ticket on a north bound train,
heading somewhere where noone knows my name,
hell i might end up in Bangor Maine,
this small town livings really got me down,
and tonight i'm gonna leave this town,


standing still never really got me anywhere,
i was born for leaving try to catch me if you dare,
old memories start to creeping up from the past,
if they get to close they gonna kick my ass,
and they always seem to do it when i stay to long,
so my bags are packed and ill leave you with this song,


i bought a one way ticket on a runaway train,
heading somewhere to make a brand new name,
yesterdays really got me down,
and tonight i'm gonna leave this town,

yeah tonight im leaving maybe head to mexico,
when your on the run aint that where everyone goes,
drink some tequilla in the hot sunshine,
find a senorita that can cloud away my mind,


yeah tonight im leaving heading somewhere i dont know,
i just a sudden got that urge to go,
as long as i keep running those demons cant catch me,
and maybe when i quit running ill finally be free,

musical interlude:

i bought a one way ticket on an leaving train,
heading somewhere to start a brand new name,
but this stagnant livings really got me down,
and tonight i'm gonna leave this town,

yeah tonight im leaving heading for the east,
spend a drunken summer down in Dewey Beach,
the Deleware living could realy be what i need,
anywhere but here is where i want to be,

yeah tonight im leaving heading somewhere i dont know,
i just a sudden got that urge to go,
where it is ill end up aint no way to know,
as long as i keep running those demons cant catch me,
and maybe when i quit running ill finally be free,
http://fertilizerforsale.blogspot.com/2012/01/tonight-im-gonna-leave-this-town.html

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

today I saw love

today I laid witness to love in its purest form,
sometimes it takes moments of sadness
to shed the blinders of perception from our souls
and allow us to see with our hearts.

today I saw love,
not love blinded by jealousy,
not love corrupted by hate,
not love invoked by lust or engulfed by greed,

today I saw shedding of ego's, supposed to's, and inhibitions,
I saw opening of hearts and following of souls,
souls allowing theirselves to feel completely,
reaching out to others to heal,
doing not what they wanted or were supposed to do,
but doing what they needed to,

I need no further proof that there exists life after death,
as today I saw death bring life,
life in it's truest form,
life solely and purely embodied in love...

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Qint already been

Sometimes when your falling
No ones there to hold the net
And the ground can feel much harder
When you hit it that way I guess

At the bottom of the bottle
There ain't no magic looking glass
And damn it I wish mistakes
Could just stay in the past

I've been holding on to nothing
Not letting go of anything
I've been beat down broke and busted
Don't have much left to sing

Oh where, oh where are we going
Oh who can lead the way
When the sun rises in the morning
Will there be a better day

I've lost faith in rumors,
I've found hope in sin
Spent my days building bridges
Just to burn'em back down again

Somewhere in the distance, 
I'm hoping to see the light,
But whose to say when I find it, 
it won't be an awful sight

It sure as hell feels like
This whole damn world has gone a stray
But we just keep on going
Cause we don't know any other way

Oh lord if you can hear me
Can't you give me a sign
Just tell me something I can do 
To somehow set shit right

I keep staring at that dark sky
Waiting for the sun to rise
But it just keeps on getting darker
And there ain't no end in sight

Maybe there's an answer
Somewhere hidden in this song 
But I sure as hell can't find it
As I sing along

I'm telling you I'm damn tired
Of living life this way
They say evil walks amongst us
Is that all they have to say

If the devil came a calling
Could we even turn him down
When a tree falls in a lonely Forrest
Does it make a sound

I've been holding on to nothing
Not letting go of anything
I've been best down broke and busted
Don't have much left to sing

I've been staring at the darknesss
Hoping to see the light
But it don't seem to be a comin
No there ain't no end in sight

I guess this song could use a closing
And I could use a friend
But I'm guessing where we will end up
Won't be anywhere we aint ever been

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Only ever free with you

Spent my days living off a shoe string,
Bumming around from town to town,
Used this ol guitar to earns few nickels,
To fill that ol bottle not deep enough to drown,

They told me I lived the good life,
Nothing or no one to hold me down,
Truth was I was running from my own demons,
Running so fast no one could slow me down,

But then one day somewhere along that path,
I somehow stumbled into your world,
And the feelings were nothing short of redemption,
For how I felt around this girl,

See I was hiding from tomorrow,
And running from yesterday,
Never took the time to realize,
How much I'd let slip away,

But when I got lost in that pretty smile,
And I first felt those gentle hands,
You brought me back from somewhere so far away,
And helped me remember who I am,

And now you say your leaving,
That you got to set me free,
And see freedom was all I ever wanted,
So don't you just love the irony,

After all my years of rambling,
No chains that I was tied down to,
You tell me to enjoy my freedom,
But Babe you were the only freedom i ever knew,

you tell me to enjoy my freedom,
But Babe you were the only freedom i ever knew,