Sunday, October 27, 2013

there's a bible on the dresser... a bottle on the floor,
a note stuck to the mirror saying i dont love you anymore,
there's a lot missing from last night, a hangover on the way,
preceding all the regrets that are bound to come my way,

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

someday

momma said don't worry child someday, it will all be better,
someday it's gonna be ok,
don't worry child someday's not to far away,
she held my hand and said one day there will be no sorrow,
yes one day, there will be no pain,
momma said someday, whoo-ohhh-ohhh-ohhh-ahhh,
ohhh, yes child, some sweet day....

suffer for strength

They say we suffer so that we can get stronger, to make us better for the journey ahead. After this life there is another journey, none of us know what's in store. If anyone was prepared for whatever lies next she will be ready, and I know full well that she will be waiting to welcome me with open arms when I arrive. Mother you were, are, and always will be my water, my air, my breath, my heart, the rhythm that keeps me flowing and the fluidity that gives me life. You helped guide me through this life and gave me the strength to be the man I have become. I know I made your job hard at times but you never showed wear, you always knew when and what I needed and were always there to provide. Your soul was weathered by many a storm but your heart fought on to give us all everything we needed to get through. We and this world owe you a debt that is unpayable for all that you provided and I only hope that you knew and carry with you to your next journey all the love that filled my heart. Until we meet in the next, I will dedicate this life to honoring you for everything. Love always your baby.

tears of sunshine

I woke up cold and the tears brought me warmth, it is only in love that comes sadness, only in love that comes joy, only love that breeds anger, and only love that brings tears, they are all a part of our beautiful journey, and on this journey we all to often get caught up in the details and lose focus of the center of it all which is love,

Monday, August 26, 2013

She suffers no more...

She suffers no more, she suffers no more, through this life she has traveled, now the next ever more,
She gave without taking, her love was so pure,
She finally gave all, and now she suffers no more,
She asked me not to cry, 
It was her time to go,
But inside her heart,
I knew that she know,
The tears would start pouring, 
As I watch her go,

She suffers no more, she suffers no more, through this life she has traveled, now the next ever more,
She gave without taking, her love was so pure,
She finally gave all, and now she suffers no more,

This road we all travel, littered with broken dreams,
Th web can get tangled, there's no end it seems,
Through it if we can find a hand, of which we can hold,
To find us light in the darkness, to bring us in from the cold,

She was our great keeper, she kept us all safe and warm,
Her heart fought right through them,
Each and every storm,

And now she's back to let her mother hold her,
Yes she suffers no more,

She suffers no more, she suffers no more, through this life she has traveled, now the next ever more,
She gave without taking, her love was so pure,
She finally gave all, and now she suffers no more,

And now with her passing, she left her suffering to me,
And I hope that I may one day grow into, 
The man she hoped I'd be,
And I'll give all I have without asking,
To honor her name,
And hope that one day my own children, will get to say the same...

She suffers no more, she suffers no more, through this life she has traveled, now the next ever more,
She gave without taking, her love was so pure,
She finally gave all, and now she suffers no more

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

one for the road...

But when in alone I start thinking
When i think I think about her
When I think about her, I think about me,
The me that done her wrong,

that's a man I'm not a fan of,
Lord knows I've tried to drown him,
But it seemed the more whiskey I fed him,
The more he just got strong,

So I went and put that bottle down,
went and turned my life around,
How I wish that she could see me now,
the man that I've become,

But sometimes I still get lonely,
And when I'm alone I get to thinking,
And I sure get tempted to just start drinking
And I just repeat this song,

Saturday, July 6, 2013

what you doing here

Hey girl what's your name, and what you doing here, 
You sure brought a shine to this old place that ain't been here in years,
Hey girl what's your name, can I buy you a beer, 
I done let too many good things pass by so let me make this nice and clear,
I sure like the way you made my soul shine when you came walking in, 
And I'm going to do the best that I can do to see you again and again,

Saturday, May 25, 2013

Lost highway

I'm a lonely man, on this lost highway,
Out here searching for something,
What it is I can't say,
But if ever I find it,
It may set me free,
And then these demons,
Might stop haunting me...

I was born restless,
Never could set still,
Momma couldn't tame me,
I think that means nothing will,
I've held a lot of good women,
But the ones I haven't left set me free,
Guess I can't blame them,
It's pretty plain to see.

I'm a lonely man, on this lost highway,
Out here searching for something,
What it is I can't say,
But if ever I find it,
It may set me free,
And then these demons,
Might stop haunting me...



Thursday, May 16, 2013

You were like a fairy tale

You were like a fairy tale...
One I never heard but knew so well,
Every moment spent with you...
Felt like I was right where I was supposed to be...
I never meant to do you wrong,
Can't say in sorry right...
So ill just sing this song,
Hoping one day you'll have your radio on,
And feel exactly what I mean,

I wish I could have been a better man,
Scared you wouldn't like just who I am,
I let the devil take the wheel,
And he lit a fire that burnt away..
All my dreams,

To spend one more day back in your arms,
I'd climb every mountain near and far,
But I know that you moved on,
And I should just let it be,

But I can't turn off these feelings in my heart,
I couldn't know anywhere to start,
And every day we've been apart, 
Makes it so much clearer for me to see...

You were like a fairy tale...
One I never heard but knew so well,
Every moment spent with you...
Felt like I was right where I was supposed to be...

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

I know that asking you to love me is asking a lot,
I've done broken and busted every good thing I've touched,
And girl your so special I don't want that to be you,
I'd just walk away but o want to try and see this one through,
So baby if you let me ill try to do my best,
I've spent most or my life running away from my own mess,
But you've given me the courage to try and stand still,
And I'm still scared as hell, but I will if you will,

And I know trying to love me is a hard thing to do,
I've been trying for years, I'd you only knew,
But I've fought years in the darkness and with you I see a light,
And I'll be damned if I'm gonna let this go,
Not without a fight,
Just give me a chance, this is all new to me,
Spend my life hiding from being tied down just trying to be free,
But I never new real freedom until I heard you say my name,
It stripped off years of regret maybe even made me a little more sane,
So if you give me a chance, ill probably need ten,
But I'll try my damnest to get it right in the end,
All ill ask if that you let me, try to show you what this love means,
And in learning as I go, so ill probably drop some things,
But I'll fight on and keep on trying to get it right,
And I'll hope that you'll let me start with tonight...

Friday, March 22, 2013

hanging out with a bottle of whiskey.. and my memories of you,

hanging out with a bottle of whiskey.. and my memories of you,

out here alone with all of my friends..
just trying to find my way,
this party sure is bumping...
at least that's what they say,


normally thats enough to get me going..
but tonight that just won't do,

no tonight its just me and a bottle of whiskey..
and my memories of you,


something about being tired of hanging on..
but not wanting to let go,
better days are coming...
at least they tell me so,


i just keep smiling on the outside..
putting on a show the way i do,
but the real me is wasting away inside..
suffering with the truth,
that tonight it's just me and this bottle of whiskey,
and my memories of you,


it's been quite a while now..
seems i'm finally moving along,
it's like i can finally change the channels..
but there still aint nothing on,


oh if you could only see me now..
the man you helped me to become,
i guess it took you finally leaving..
to kickstart that ol' drum,


sometimes i make it through a day without thinking of you,
hell sometimes times maybe even two,
but this sure ain't one of them,
and this sure aint nothing knew,
to be hanging out with this whiskey bottle..
and my memories of you,


yeah i guess it's how i honor your memory..
all the beautiful times we shared,
and it hurts me so deep inside..
that i never showed you how much i cared,


and i sure can't blame you for leaving,
i left that awful me behind as well,
but sometimes my heart drifts my mind back to the place where we were,
hoping it might catch a smell,


of that sweet smell of your perfume..
or the soft touch of your hair,
or that twinkle in your eye...
im right there now i swear,


and how can i ever convince myself to let go...
of the only thing in my life that ever felt true..
so ill just stay here with this bottle of whiskey..
and my memories of you,


yeah it's still just me and this bottle of whiskey..
and my memories of you...


Thursday, March 7, 2013

the way that i lost you

they say hindsights twenty,twenty,
looking back i sure can see,
all the things i should have done... and things i should have just let be,
out of all of my mistakes, lord knows theres quite a few,
i can say that my one real regret, is the way that i lost you...

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

why not dream...


when that music hit him, it touched me deep down in his soul,
he felt the fires of passion in the heart of rock n roll,
the power and the healing aint that just what music brings,
yeah a dreamer is only crazy... to those to scared to dream,

so why not dream, open up your soul and let it breathe,
set it free, free so it can be what it can be,
anything,
anything is possible in a dream,
and what is life,
and what is life if it can't dream,
a dream of our souls destiny,
ao set it free, free so it can be what it's meant to be,
just a dream, life's just a dream,
set your soul free,
and let it dream,


years of being held back, from the worries and the doubts,
years of being couped up in the four walls of his house,
just trying to fit in to the system,
working so hard for the man,
but that's just the life your stuck with,
when you grow up working with your hands,

he loved to pick that guitar, music was his great escape,
a few hours every evening, was all the time he could make,
everyone called him crazy when he stayed home to play,
passing up the good times, he never cared much for what they'd say,

he'd say why not dream, open up your soul and let it breathe,
set it free, free so it can be what it can be,
anything,
anything is possible in a dream,
and what is life,
and what is life if it can't dream,
a dream of our souls destiny,
ao set it free, free so it can be what it's meant to be,
just a dream, life's just a dream,
set your soul free,
and let it dream,


but he just kept on pickin', he found power in the sounds,
those deep down hidden feelings, music found a way to let them out,
he fought hard with his demons, facing them each and everyone,
he didnt need no swords or bullets, his guitar stronger than a gun,
the music stayed right there beside him,
through all of lifes ups and downs,

he played on through tears and laughter, he played through smiles and frowns,
he dug up those emotions, he found a way to let them shine,
and now when people hear him, they say the healing is devine,
when that music hit him, it touched me deep down in his soul,
he felt the fires of passion in the heart of rock n roll,
the power and the healing aint that just what music brings,
yeah a dreamer is only crazy... to those to scared to dream,

why not dream, open up your soul and let it breathe,
set it free, free so it can be what it can be,
anything,
anything is possible in a dream,
and what is life,
and what is life if it can't dream,
a dream of our souls destiny,
ao set it free, free so it can be what it's meant to be,
just a dream, life's just a dream,
set your soul free,
and let it dream,


Thursday, January 17, 2013

that my friend is what makes you a sheeple

that could never happen here is what they will say,
as I tell them our rights are being widdled away,
a speedy public trial with a right to defense,
for all individuals, that was the pretense,

but now the amendment called 6 hath been shaved,
signed bill into law this years NDAA,
indefinite detention at the discretion of few,
as they sit upon a throne, just enjoying the view,

terrorist will be the only ones jailed without trial,
i ask you my friend are you just in denial?,
if it wouldn’t happen here, not in this day,
ask our Japanese friends about world war 2 internment camps,
see what they say...

You cell phone conversations are not considered your own,
listening in at their whim, is this not considered your home?
wasn’t there an amendment once upon a time called the 4th?,
put in place to protect us from this kind of recourse?,

secure in their persons, everyone should thus be,
homes, papers, effects not unwarrantedly searched or seized,
probably cause for a warrant that was a fact,
but that chopped right away by the so called patriot act,

and what the hell is this nonsense about free speech zones,
did they read the same constitution that i keep in my home?
the right to trade freely? have you tried to start a business these days,
if i can dance around the licensing’s and regulations,
then its mountains of taxes i pay,

over my own body i should be the king,
yet they get to tell me what I can eat and drink?
the debt keeps on building, yet they print money from trees,
while our fortunes are spent on more wars overseas?

while our people starving, many losing their homes
instead of working to find ways to feed them,
let's just spend more money building drones?

To drop bombs on other nations, and worse to spy on our own,
tell me is this the nation I was so proud to call home?
this all enacted by politicians, left and right just the same,
and no one else gets a voice, that’s the name of their game,

this nation once belong to the people,
 now it seems to the chosen ones,
and your telling me don’t be scared...
just hand over your guns?