mary the lover

some of them trying to find Jesus,
some running from their pride,
some of them looking for a reason,
some just searching for a rhyme,

she just houses and feeds them,
and sends em on there way,
cause what it is their needin',
they'll have to find some other place,

she just tries to help out,
the only way that she knows how,
and every one that leaves her,
she leaves them with a smile,

they say Mary she's a sinner,
but many've called Mary a saint,
I guess it's in the eye of the beholder,
For what we are an ain't,

this road that we all travel,
It's filled with broken dreams,
and the ways we find to mend them,
to others it may seem,

But where it is we're going,
and how we will get there we don't know,
But many a prophet has preached,
You reap just what you sow,

see Mary she's a lover,
It's the only life she's ever known,
and she won't make you no false promises,
Just help to ease your load,

they say Mary she's a sinner,
but Many've called Mary a saint,
I guess it's in the eye of the beholder,
For what we are an ain't,

she just keeps on helping,
the only way that she knows how,
and every one that leaves her,
she leaves them with a smile,

some of them trying to find Jesus,
some running from their pride,
some of them looking for a reason,
some just searching for a rhyme,

she just houses and feeds them,
and sends em on there way,
cause what it is there needing,
they'll have to find some other place

over and over... and over and over...

i said nick knack patty whack give a dog a bone,
roll'em on over send him back home,
but where's he gonna be when it's over,
laying in bed thinkin' shit over,

whatcha gonna do when he falls in love,
cause love aint nothing you been thinkin of,
you just out there lookin' for a good time,
that's what you say but i think it's just a disguise,

really you just out there lookin' for power,
someone over which you can tower,
to make you feel better for how you was treated,
so beat down and so defeated,

now you wanna go and pass the buck down,
hmmm, how familiar does this shit sound,


come on now lady wont you think about it,
but are you gonna listen...hmmmm, i doubt it,
you just gonna move on to the next guy,
nevermind the hearts you break or the ones you make cry,

you just gonna keep luring them in,
hearts for breaking like pissing in the wind,
but where you gonna end up when it's over,
laying in bed, thinkin' shit over,

what you gonna do when you needin love,
cause love aint nothin you been thinkin of,
while you were out there lookin for a good time,
you done and gone and broke your heart from the inside,

now your empty looking for a quick fix,
taking home anybody that you can get with,
but they'll be out of bed before you roll over,
it's a viscious cycle over and over,

i said nick knack patty whack give a dog a bone,
roll'em on over send him back home,
but where's he gonna be when it's over,
laying in bed thinkin' shit over,

but what you gonna do when he falls in love,
cause love aint nothing, you been thinkin of,
and love is what you done and run away from,
but love is the only thing you been hiding from,
but love aint nothing that you been thinkin of,
but love is the one thing you've been dreaming of,

and over and over,ohhhh,
and over, over,and over,
ohh-ohh, over and over,
ohhhh, over, over,
ohhh-ohhhh, over and over,
ohhh, and over and over,
yeaaahhh, over, over,
yeah let's get this shit over,
ohhhh, ohhh-over,

this shit is whack, im outta here....

drown her out of my heart...

another sunday morning wake up call, is the ringing in my head,
pickin my pants off the floor, after sneaking out of bed,
whatever it was i did last night, i sure as hell dont recall,
and whoever this is lying next to me, well don't that just say it all,


mornings lately spent sleeping off the night before,
and evenings picking songs, getting tuned, and trying to keep myself up off the floor,
pretty girls come easily, when your up on the stage,
and loneliness, draws loneliness, it just sure seems that way,

the emptiness she left me with, just seems to drown my soul,
and no matter how high the night before, the mornings always feel so low,

id like to learn to love again, but i dont know where to start,
see i can drink her off my mind,but i cant drown her out my heart,

tonight im gonna leave this town...

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i bought a one way ticket on an south bound train,
heading down where they all know my name,
this big city life's really got me down,
and tonight i'm gonna leave this town,

yeah tonight im leaving maybe headed out west,
those colorado mountains could really pass the test,
need some fresh air and some tall, tall trees,
anywhere but here is where i want to be,

i bought a one way ticket on a north bound train,
heading somewhere where noone knows my name,
hell i might end up in Bangor Maine,
this small town livings really got me down,
and tonight i'm gonna leave this town,


standing still never really got me anywhere,
i was born for leaving try to catch me if you dare,
old memories start to creeping up from the past,
if they get to close they gonna kick my ass,
and they always seem to do it when i stay to long,
so my bags are packed and ill leave you with this song,


i bought a one way ticket on a runaway train,
heading somewhere to make a brand new name,
yesterdays really got me down,
and tonight i'm gonna leave this town,

yeah tonight im leaving maybe head to mexico,
when your on the run aint that where everyone goes,
drink some tequilla in the hot sunshine,
find a senorita that can cloud away my mind,


yeah tonight im leaving heading somewhere i dont know,
i just a sudden got that urge to go,
as long as i keep running those demons cant catch me,
and maybe when i quit running ill finally be free,

musical interlude:

i bought a one way ticket on an leaving train,
heading somewhere to start a brand new name,
but this stagnant livings really got me down,
and tonight i'm gonna leave this town,

yeah tonight im leaving heading for the east,
spend a drunken summer down in Dewey Beach,
the Deleware living could realy be what i need,
anywhere but here is where i want to be,

yeah tonight im leaving heading somewhere i dont know,
i just a sudden got that urge to go,
where it is ill end up aint no way to know,
as long as i keep running those demons cant catch me,
and maybe when i quit running ill finally be free,
http://fertilizerforsale.blogspot.com/2012/01/tonight-im-gonna-leave-this-town.html

today I saw love

today I laid witness to love in its purest form,
sometimes it takes moments of sadness
to shed the blinders of perception from our souls
and allow us to see with our hearts.

today I saw love,
not love blinded by jealousy,
not love corrupted by hate,
not love invoked by lust or engulfed by greed,

today I saw shedding of ego's, supposed to's, and inhibitions,
I saw opening of hearts and following of souls,
souls allowing theirselves to feel completely,
reaching out to others to heal,
doing not what they wanted or were supposed to do,
but doing what they needed to,

I need no further proof that there exists life after death,
as today I saw death bring life,
life in it's truest form,
life solely and purely embodied in love...

Qint already been

Sometimes when your falling
No ones there to hold the net
And the ground can feel much harder
When you hit it that way I guess

At the bottom of the bottle
There ain't no magic looking glass
And damn it I wish mistakes
Could just stay in the past

I've been holding on to nothing
Not letting go of anything
I've been beat down broke and busted
Don't have much left to sing

Oh where, oh where are we going
Oh who can lead the way
When the sun rises in the morning
Will there be a better day

I've lost faith in rumors,
I've found hope in sin
Spent my days building bridges
Just to burn'em back down again

Somewhere in the distance, 
I'm hoping to see the light,
But whose to say when I find it, 
it won't be an awful sight

It sure as hell feels like
This whole damn world has gone a stray
But we just keep on going
Cause we don't know any other way

Oh lord if you can hear me
Can't you give me a sign
Just tell me something I can do 
To somehow set shit right

I keep staring at that dark sky
Waiting for the sun to rise
But it just keeps on getting darker
And there ain't no end in sight

Maybe there's an answer
Somewhere hidden in this song 
But I sure as hell can't find it
As I sing along

I'm telling you I'm damn tired
Of living life this way
They say evil walks amongst us
Is that all they have to say

If the devil came a calling
Could we even turn him down
When a tree falls in a lonely Forrest
Does it make a sound

I've been holding on to nothing
Not letting go of anything
I've been best down broke and busted
Don't have much left to sing

I've been staring at the darknesss
Hoping to see the light
But it don't seem to be a comin
No there ain't no end in sight

I guess this song could use a closing
And I could use a friend
But I'm guessing where we will end up
Won't be anywhere we aint ever been

Only ever free with you

Spent my days living off a shoe string,
Bumming around from town to town,
Used this ol guitar to earns few nickels,
To fill that ol bottle not deep enough to drown,

They told me I lived the good life,
Nothing or no one to hold me down,
Truth was I was running from my own demons,
Running so fast no one could slow me down,

But then one day somewhere along that path,
I somehow stumbled into your world,
And the feelings were nothing short of redemption,
For how I felt around this girl,

See I was hiding from tomorrow,
And running from yesterday,
Never took the time to realize,
How much I'd let slip away,

But when I got lost in that pretty smile,
And I first felt those gentle hands,
You brought me back from somewhere so far away,
And helped me remember who I am,

And now you say your leaving,
That you got to set me free,
And see freedom was all I ever wanted,
So don't you just love the irony,

After all my years of rambling,
No chains that I was tied down to,
You tell me to enjoy my freedom,
But Babe you were the only freedom i ever knew,

you tell me to enjoy my freedom,
But Babe you were the only freedom i ever knew,