the way that i lost you

they say hindsights twenty,twenty,
looking back i sure can see,
all the things i should have done... and things i should have just let be,
out of all of my mistakes, lord knows theres quite a few,
i can say that my one real regret, is the way that i lost you...

why not dream...

when that music hit him, it touched me deep down in his soul,
he felt the fires of passion in the heart of rock n roll,
the power and the healing aint that just what music brings,
yeah a dreamer is only crazy... to those to scared to dream,

so why not dream, open up your soul and let it breathe,
set it free, free so it can be what it can be,
anything,
anything is possible in a dream,
and what is life,
and what is life if it can't dream,
a dream of our souls destiny,
ao set it free, free so it can be what it's meant to be,
just a dream, life's just a dream,
set your soul free,
and let it dream,

years of being held back, from the worries and the doubts,
years of being couped up in the four walls of his house,
just trying to fit in to the system,
working so hard for the man,
but that's just the life your stuck with,
when you grow up working with your hands,

he loved to pick that guitar, music was his great escape,
a few hours every evening, was all the time he could make,
everyone called him crazy when he stayed home to play,
passing up the good times, he never cared much for what they'd say,

he'd say why not dream, open up your soul and let it breathe,
set it free, free so it can be what it can be,
anything,
anything is possible in a dream,
and what is life,
and what is life if it can't dream,
a dream of our souls destiny,
ao set it free, free so it can be what it's meant to be,
just a dream, life's just a dream,
set your soul free,
and let it dream,

but he just kept on pickin', he found power in the sounds,
those deep down hidden feelings, music found a way to let them out,
he fought hard with his demons, facing them each and everyone,
he didnt need no swords or bullets, his guitar stronger than a gun,
the music stayed right there beside him,
through all of lifes ups and downs,

he played on through tears and laughter, he played through smiles and frowns,
he dug up those emotions, he found a way to let them shine,
and now when people hear him, they say the healing is devine,
when that music hit him, it touched me deep down in his soul,
he felt the fires of passion in the heart of rock n roll,
the power and the healing aint that just what music brings,
yeah a dreamer is only crazy... to those to scared to dream,

why not dream, open up your soul and let it breathe,
set it free, free so it can be what it can be,
anything,
anything is possible in a dream,
and what is life,
and what is life if it can't dream,
a dream of our souls destiny,
ao set it free, free so it can be what it's meant to be,
just a dream, life's just a dream,
set your soul free,
and let it dream,

that my friend is what makes you a sheeple

that could never happen here is what they will say,
as I tell them our rights are being widdled away,
a speedy public trial with a right to defense,
for all individuals, that was the pretense,

but now the amendment called 6 hath been shaved,
signed bill into law this years NDAA,
indefinite detention at the discretion of few,
as they sit upon a throne, just enjoying the view,

terrorist will be the only ones jailed without trial,
i ask you my friend are you just in denial?,
if it wouldn’t happen here, not in this day,
ask our Japanese friends about world war 2 internment camps,
see what they say...

You cell phone conversations are not considered your own,
listening in at their whim, is this not considered your home?
wasn’t there an amendment once upon a time called the 4th?,
put in place to protect us from this kind of recourse?,

secure in their persons, everyone should thus be,
homes, papers, effects not unwarrantedly searched or seized,
probably cause for a warrant that was a fact,
but that chopped right away by the so called patriot act,

and what the hell is this nonsense about free speech zones,
did they read the same constitution that i keep in my home?
the right to trade freely? have you tried to start a business these days,
if i can dance around the licensing’s and regulations,
then its mountains of taxes i pay,

over my own body i should be the king,
yet they get to tell me what I can eat and drink?
the debt keeps on building, yet they print money from trees,
while our fortunes are spent on more wars overseas?

while our people starving, many losing their homes
instead of working to find ways to feed them,
let's just spend more money building drones?

To drop bombs on other nations, and worse to spy on our own,
tell me is this the nation I was so proud to call home?
this all enacted by politicians, left and right just the same,
and no one else gets a voice, that’s the name of their game,

this nation once belong to the people,
 now it seems to the chosen ones,
and your telling me don’t be scared...
just hand over your guns?

taking off this collar...

Im’a takin’ off this collar, no more leash, no more chain.
Im’a heading off to somewhere, where no one knows my name.
Do a little unwinding, the only way that I know how.
Yeah, oh yeah tonight, im going out….

Im going out of town, out on the town, out somewhere to unwind,
My bags are packed, the car is wating, yeah I aint wasting no time,
Im gonna get to forgetting, all the things ill do,
Yeah im leaving here tonight, and I sure as hell aint taking you,

This place feels like a prison, all the walls are closing in,
And it sure don’t feel much different than any other that ive been,
Tighting up that neck tie, it starts to feeling like a chain,
Reminding me who im serving as I march through this rat race,

The money than im making, it aint even really mine,
Pay the tax man, and the sheriff, just enough left for her wine,
Yeah every year im stuck here, I just a little more indebt,
And if there ever was a breaking point, I think it just got met…

Im’a takin’ off this collar, no more leash, no more chain.
Im’a heading off to somewhere, where no one knows my name.
Do a little unwinding, the only way that I know how.
Yeah, oh yeah tonight, im going out….

Im going out of town, out on the town, out somewhere to unwind,
My bags are packed, the car is wating, yeah I aint wasting no time,
Im gonna get to forgetting, all the things ill do,
Yeah im leaving here tonight, and I sure as hell aint taking you,

It's time to do better

Sometimes I feel the desire to run away from the current.
I chose to bury myself in things to divert my thoughts from focusing on state that is now,
god gifted me with eyes to fully see and understand the world beyond the pixie dust vision held by those that are content with just going through the motions of life and not searching for understanding of the world and all of its complexities,
I do not have the capability of turning off this concern and burying myself in mindlessness and self gratification of the brain dead television, video games, or general materialism, that engulfs our current societal norm,
I constantly see the world for what it is including all its flaws and the destructive path that it is on,

I cannot see with the selfish eye of pure self indulgence and self gratification,
This selfishness is not just a selfishness of wanting things for oneself and materialism but also for the selfish desire for the world to be as one desires it, for everyone to fall into place of this personal gratifying vision that anyone individual has, and to do all that is possible to make others fit into this “mold”,
instead I see the world as the imperfect, holistic, evolving creature that it is,
as the full sum of its parts, and for how the imperfections work together to create the perfection that it is,

I also see the power of humanity, and how mans slowly developing brain has reached a mass of power capable of doing much good or much harm to the world,
what scares me with this is mans arrogance of believing it knows all that is to be known and using this to inspire it's futile attempts to control a world so much bigger and more complex and interwoven than it could ever understand,
this frightens me to my core as I see the evils in this arrogance and the destructive path that this points us on,

particularly with centrically focused power and the lack of checks and balances that a more individualistic and local based society would provide,
the move to this more world centric power where individuals are content with giving up their rights and powers to leaders who offer false promises of security and riches,
these individuals motivated or unmotivated out of apathy and lack of desire for taking the personal responsibility and effort that come with having freedom chose to give this freedom away to others as long as those others promise to take the responsibility that comes along with it,

those leaders willing to claim this power from this apathetic society are not the type of leaders who will lead free people and guide them towards enlightenment,
Rather they are that of those that have their own visions of the way the world should work and want to manage the mindless drones to fit into this vision,
They do not want individuals thinking for their selves and running their own lives, rather they want those that are willing to fall in line,

True leaders that encourage men to understand that liberty only comes from within do not make promises of benefits to be given from choosing them as their leaders,
Rather they work to inspire others to stand up and lead their selves,
to think for their selves, to educate their selves and to bring their selves to a less selfish and holistic understanding of the world and their place in it,

I don't see our world headed anywhere near this direction, rather farther away from ,
I see apathetic people tossing away their liberty to managers not leaders boasting false promises of security,
I see managers not leaders being chosen on pretty words and promises of materialistic benefits,
I see a pop culture hell bent on self destruction powered by this internal greed with no desire to pursue enlightenment,
this scares me at my core,

I have hid from these visions for most of my life,
burying myself in obsessions some that our current society would call "good" many they would call "bad" but all obsessions I used to distract myself from seeing the true understanding of this destructive path that we are on,

I have now more so come to understand that having these visions and this understanding does not mean that I am crazy and out of sync with reality,
Rather it shows that i am out of sync with a culture that has went so far astray,
this does not give me the right or the reason to continue on a self destructive and self gratifying path as “what the hell” society is on this hopeless path anyways,
it instead bestows upon me the responsibility to utilize the best of my capabilities of my understanding, knowledge, talents, and fortitude to change it,

I can no longer sit idly by and watch as the world marches towards this destruction,
as humanity marches away from freedom and towards tyranny,
as we destroy our earth chasing materialistic dreams of self importance,
as our citizens are convinced that some false two dimensional dichotomy viewpoint divides them into battling factions all the time distracting them from the real problems that we truly face,

I must devote my efforts to trying to educate, to trying to change, to trying to guide us out of this darkness,
I must focus my efforts on ripping off the blinders and clearing the remaining dust from our eyes,
So that we can all see with our own individual eyes the world for the beauty that it is, for the evils that exist, and for the beauty that can be...

Yes these are the things I awake thinking of at 2:30am,
You may think that this makes me a crazy person,
But truthfully ask yourself, you internal conscience, your true internal self who is crazy?
those who see these problems and desires to change them or those that think that this current state is just fine and somehow miraculously sustainable...


we have created one of the most hideous crimes that humanity has ever known that or robbing from the future....
I ask you to truly question your own soul as o whether you are on the right path and doing all that you can do to better the world and if not to challenge yourself to do more and reach your ultimate potential,
We only get one chance to make our mark on this world, is it time that we decide we want to leave it a better place, or do we say screw the future?

aint that the truth...

Yes I am just a rambler..
I was born a gypsie soul,
make my living making music..
out here on the road,

met my sweetheart on a park bench..
back in nineteen ninety two,
and we sure made good loving..
before we were through,

she went and found another man..
as I couldn't do her right,
lord to watch her walk away..
was such an awful sight,

aint that the truth..
aint that the truth,
truth of it all...

But time moves on...
And so do I,
Living hard...
Until I die,

these days the television..
says so many awful things,
shot mine with a fourty five..
then heard the neighbor scream,

So I moved on..
probably should have just turned it off...
but what the hell..

reality television is such a mess..
and nothing else is on,cept
news channels full of things..
about how this worlds gone wrong,

you got preachers selling politics..
politicians selling lies,
and i just keep on living..
trying to make shit rhyme,

aint that the truth..
aint that the truth,
truth of it all...

these days im not sure whats up and down..
and things sure as hell ain't right,
but i still dont have much trouble..
going to bed at night,

sometimes its on a park bench..
others in a fancy hotel,s
ometimes it's with your girlfriend..
Hey man, what the hell,

aint that the truth..
aint that the truth,
truth of it all...

But time moves on...
And so do I,
Living hard...
Until I die,

aint that the truth..
aint that the truth,
truth of it all...

the first time i held that girl in my arms they way that it felt, it cant be ignored, oh her sould touched me, ohhhh, when she touched me and i felt so alive anytime she was near, my heart felt so free, sould ridden of fear, oh how her soul touched me, oh lord how she touched me, theres just something bout that woman that i can not explain that brought back to life a soul so burdened by pain, ohhh when she touched me ohhhh, how her soul touched me, somwhere in this world theres a place free of fear, a place where dreams dont die, they live on beyond years, a place where hearts are left unburdened by time, a place unexplainable by reason or rhyme, many spend their lives searching but never get near, many have gave up looking, but not me my dear, because i was there, ohhh, when you touched me, and i know that damn devil just wouldnt let me be, brought out my demons wrapped in insecurity, and and and i know that he hurt you, that bastard he hurt you, and ill never forgive him, or that part of me, for he chased away the answer to all of my dreams, and if i could turn this world right around on a dime, if it took me forever to somehow stop time, oh and go back babe, lord whould i go back babe, id go back to that moment when i held you in my arms, id leave time there frozen, no need to move on, oh how you touched me, how i felt when you touched me, i wont give up on searching, but it dont seem fair, ive got many mountains to climb, but i feel someday ill get there, to that place, ohhh that place that you took me, ill keep fighting these demons, i wont let them win, try to break free of this prison that ive been living in, lord in this mess ive made, i dont think it's to late, and whenever i get there, to that place far away, ill just keep on hoping that maybe someday, that ill get to see you, ohhhh, how sweet to see you, and maybe you'll remember that better part of me, the one you helped dig out, that you helped set free, ohhhh, how you touched me, how you helped set my soul free, and maybe you'll reach out your hand to take mine, and maybe you'll hold me again one more time, and maybe in that moment ill finally be free, and maybe ill shake these demons that keep haunting me, ohhhh, and maybe, just maybe there will be a better day, and maybe, just maybe, is all i can say, ohhh when she touched me, ohhh lord how she touched me, how she set my soul free, ohhh when she touched me, how her soul touched me....