Thursday, April 26, 2012

please let me go

Yeah it's an awful life when I'm surrounded by you , I can't let go, don't know what I can do, Your memories all float around in my mind, reminding me of such a better time, And my heart breaks slowly each time that I think, That another day will go on, out here on the brink, Yes I've started falling the day you walked in, And the day you walked out pushed me over the ledge, Since then I've been falling, praying for the ground, believing that splat would be such a wonderful sound, right now i just sit here hoping for the pain, cause an end to this misery would be a great thing, But ur memory won't let go it just keeps hanging on, Telling me someday that you might not be gone, So I just keep sitting here floating through air, I closed my eyes once, open then if I dare, But that ground seems far, so damn far away, And the day that I hit it will be such a sweet day , Cause them maybe all of this pain will be gone, Of knowing I lost the only thing that kept me going on, See your love was like sunshine in a lifetime of rain, And I done chased it, I chased it, so damn far away, Got damn these old demons that won't let me go, And someday it will be better, at least they tell me so, But yet I keep falling just praying for the ground, Cause that hard hit would be wonderful I can imagine the sound, But yet I just keep on falling, don't seem like I'm going nowhere, Just keep hoping that you'll be back, Got damn it ain't fair, Just tell your damn memory to finally let me go, My souls grew damn tired it just wants to go home....

Monday, April 23, 2012

im not over you no more

looked in the mirror this morning, said damn it boy your doing well, down twenty pounds since April, and that new dew wears you well, hit in the winning run on friday, and left with the waitresses number that night, just one of those times when you can say, hey man everything is going right, sat down for myself some spring cleaning, out with the old i guess they say, making room for new begginings, making room for brighter days, until i opened up that dresser drawer... that that old picture came falling down, those pretty eyes just seemed to watch me, the whole way to the ground, and with it my heart went falling all the way down to the floor, and just like that it's safe to say im not over you no more... ohhh-whoooo-ohhh, ohhh-oohhhh-ohhh, those memories, whooo-oooohhh-oooo, won't let me be, ohhh-whooo-ohhh, ohh-ohhh, nooo-oohhhh, ohhh-yeahhhh, they wont let go of me, if i could turn this whole damn around, stop it spinning in it's tracks, whooo-ooohhh-ohhh, ohhh-ohhh-ohhh-ohhh yeah, just to have one more day back, ive been wrestling with those memories, keep playing over and over in my head, and i thought by now that they'd be over, until that picture fell next to the bed, the bed that we made so much sweet love in, where i got to hold heaven in my arms, and even after all the hell ive raised with the devil, ill never forgive him for that scar, ohhh-for how he let me hurt you, and for how-ooowww-owww i let my pride chase you away, and i wonder if you ever think of me, or if you just through those memories away, yeah you can say ive been doing great without you, really seemed lately to get things right, but if you could see my heart from the inside, it would be such an awful sight, i thought id finally made my peace with it, thought id finally closed that door, but now i guess its safe to say, im not over you no more, ohhh-whoooo-ohhh, ohhh-oohhhh-ohhh, those memories, whooo-oooohhh-oooo, won't let me be, ohhh-whooo-ohhh, ohh-ohhh, nooo-oohhhh, ohhh-yeahhhh, they wont let go of me, if i could turn this whole damn around, stop it spinning in it's tracks, whooo-ooohhh-ohhh, ohhh-ohhh-ohhh-ohhh yeah, just to have one more day back, everyone tells me i just need to let it go, that better days will come my way, truth is the world without you, it's such a damn lonely place, and i can fake my way through the motions, and i can put on quite a show, show the world that im a better man, so hopefully they'll never know, how deep my shame runs for how i lost what, how my heart stopped beating in my chest, chased away by yesterdays demons, that i just couldnt lay to rest, ohhh-whoooo-ohhh, ohhh-oohhhh-ohhh, those memories, whooo-oooohhh-oooo, won't let me be, ohhh-whooo-ohhh, ohh-ohhh, nooo-oohhhh, ohhh-yeahhhh, they wont let go of me, if i could turn this whole damn around, stop it spinning in it's tracks, whooo-ooohhh-ohhh, ohhh-ohhh-ohhh-ohhh yeah, just to have one more day back, and i may never again, get to hold you, but your memories wont ever let me go, holding on so damn tight to what is left of, this broke and batter soul, and what id give for one more day to love you, to show you how i could be a better man, but whose to say i wouldnt stumble with my vices, and chase you all the way, away again, ohh-whoooo-ohhh, ohhh-oohhhh-ohhh, those memories, whooo-oooohhh-oooo, won't let me be, ohhh-whooo-ohhh, ohh-ohhh, nooo-oohhhh, ohhh-yeahhhh, they wont let go of me, so ill bury this back down deep inside me, pretend that i just let it go, put this show back on for the world around me, so only me and your memory will know,

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

those were the times...

oh, how i miss it, oh, those were the times,
oh, the way they hit us,
couldnt explain through reason or rhyme,
oh, but how they left us,
and oh, how they leave us still,
... lives forever changed by something so surreal,

isnt it quite strange how getting lost,
is quite often the only way to be found,
or perhaps we are all really lost,
as this world seems to come unwound,

but somehow we were drawn together,
for such a precious moment of time,
so far far away,
from lifes daily endless grind,

but those days may have been short lived,
but within them an enternity spawned,
lives torn apart and put back together,
souls brought together as one,

and in that drunken stooper,
they found a way to heal,
sparking life back into fading bodies,
reminding them how to feel,

and bringing lost souls together,
and friendships that will never fade,
for just as mother ocean takes away from us,
she gives back with every wave

gives back with every wave...

father time just keeps on ticking,
steady as he goes,
refreshing every moment,
where its going noone knows,

he fills us often with smiles and laughter,
but just as often with sandness and tears,
with steady hands just keeps on changing,
rolling through the years,

mother ocean, she's a lover,
but not the heartless kind,
in and out she keeps on going,
keeps us rolling with the tide,

she keeps time with her great lover,
and keeps her beat right with the days,
for just as mother ocean takes away from us,
she gives back with every wave,

Sunday, April 8, 2012

two shots away from hell

One shot away from freedom, two shots away from hell,
Yeah where it is I'm going there ain't no way to tell,
Spend my life lonely in freedom,
Or to many years her slave,
Either way when its ending,
It's something else I'll crave,
Well maybe I'll never be happy,
With anything that's already there,
So I'll just keep on searching,
Till the end I'll swear,
That one day ima find me,
Such a better day,
And if I die trying, at least I didn't live my life your way...

flying solo...

I fly solo a lot these days, but it's ok I was born that way, and besides that in never alone, I've got my friend the highway riding along,
And the new people I meet they all seem to smile, when I tell them where I've been, and I'll be back in a while, and When I do make it back their smiling again,
And a handshake or hug comes following then,
Some birds are to colorful to be caged, some were born to sit still, some were born to rage,
And hell I might not ever get to be old,
But what will live forever are the stories I've told,
So hopefully we will meet again somewhere down the street, and we can dance a jig or two of your feeling the beat, and if you ain't quite got that vibe in your shoes, I've got some corn whiskey in a jar that will put you in the mood,
But I can't stay not for to long,
Cause I'm just a lonely singer out looking for a song,

kentucky sunset...

Kentucky sunset can make a grown man cry,
Stole the days beauty to fill up the sky,
Hold on to every last second of the day,
Before they let the night still it away...